Wednesday, 12 April 2017

The inspirational speeches of my Head of Sixth Form.

How do you focus on your work?
I personally, have no ability to focus on work without the impeding fear of everything going wrong. If I am too chilled I will literally do nothing but watch TV, listen to music, eat and sleep. However, if the head of the sixth form with give a motivational speech which is more like an hour-long threatening with a side of 'failing in life' then if buck up and start to revise and do better coursework and exams.
But, here is an honest description of my Head of Sixth form to make it more realistic for you to imagine;
He is welsh
He once shouted at a kid for not knocking on his classroom door before entering, However, due to a school breaking where the robbers smashes the doors there was no actual door on the frame.
He has made year 7's cry (I haven't seen the proof but it must to have happened)
He can shout so loud whilst looking disappointed that even if you are innoncent he can make you feel guilty and turn you pants in Zebra-themed.
Very similar, yet shorter, to the Head of Sixth form in 'The Inbetweeners' (it must be the example in the Head of Sixth Form handbook)

So when he first did the motivational speech this time last year I was revising over 4 hours a day on top of a 6 hours school day. This meant I eat, slept and breathed Biology, Psychology, Media and English Literature. Which left me with some left over which meant in September and October I still was motivated so I even taught myself half of the syllabus before the Teacher had fired up Powerpoint.
But, now I have run out. I am doing everything last minute, I find way to take the stressful edge off of it the morning of the exam be it sugar or other vices. I am still revising but not by much. Media I don't really revise until the actual mock exam because it comes natural to me, English Literature doesn't make sense to revise truly because the only way to revise is to practise doing the exams or trying to remember layouts which provide the best successful outcome possible. Then, ther is now my last lesson Psychology which I have about 100 prep cards for term which account to 1 out of the 2 text books, I have extreme masses and folders of revision for the subject so much so that I actually provide the teacher with resources and crib sheets which then I give to the class. I even make notes and attend every lesson without bunking however, I am only just achieving a D whereas there are people who achieve A's and don't take notes, don't revise and im pretty sure even cheated in their mocks unsuccessfully but still.

So this is to my Sixth form head, scare the shit out of me NOW. Give me a realisation that I will fail if I don't buck up my ideas.

Friday, 10 March 2017

Should I shout it from the roof tops or simply put a note in your locker?



I dress myself in feminine clothing so you can know from my perspective that I am a woman underneath
I wear make-up to highlight it even more, with bright colours and bold lines.
So why is it you never notice.
So why is it that you have never told me I'm pretty, or told me I'm beautiful, or even sexy or hot.
if not then tell me exactly what I need to do for you to notice that like you, I have feelings.
I want to have someone to want to hug me,
To want to kiss.
To want to have sex with me.
Not as just an object or something to do to pass the time in-between doing final exams and going off to University.
One said that it wouldn't be fair to start a relationship only to end it because he was going to university.
What about me!! Im going to university and wouldn't I want the choice as to whether to date even if it meant having to have the odd 3 hours journey to see them.
But, no I have have crazy crushes on a guys who don't usually correlate me as a woman who may have needs,
I have always been there for him when he has been on the edge or tears or the sharp cliff of anger.
But, what does that me "a good friend" or  "G".


What should I do?
- Hold a boombox outside of his house like "Say anything"
- Wait outside with a nice red car like "16 wishes"
- Give my earring to him like "The Breakfast club"
- Or be your secretary who keeps on talking about my tree-trunk thigh-calling-ex-boyfriend like "Love actually"



So I say to you, grow some cojones and if you have even an inckling of feelings towards me. Fucking tell me Im beautiful, sexy or hot. Ask me out to your favourite place, to watch you favourite film or to do your favourite activity.