New idea to change my appearance

For those who know me, I like to think of ways to change my appearance every week and we'll this week's idea I am defiantly more sold on.


Bare in mind that I have medium brown hair, with a fringe. And according to my mum I am not allowed to dye my hair yet, dude I'm 17 only a couple months from being 18.

So I am wanting to bleach my fringe. Just to go blonde. But it will make a statement.
Much like the fact that I am getting new glasses tomorow and we'll they had to use frames of sunglasses because they were so out there. They are white. Unfortunately I was going to go for glow in the dark glasses but my cheekbones hold my glasses in place as they are high and we'll the gitd glasses would not fit.

Now I need to just approach my mum with the idea. My friends always support me and I'm pretty sure rhem imagine my mum to be some sort of dragon the way she turns down all of my proposition. But just let me do something.

Mother ;

I am not allowed to have more ear piercing than a lobe piercing because dad can't stand anything out there. You say that I can't dye my whole hair because you need money to keep it up as well as the chemicals on my head could cause bad things.




New update, she said no
Even newer update, I now have red hair which is cute to an extremely short bob, she still won't budge on the piercing though.

Being a TEENAGER!!!

So it's good that it has been a month since I have felt depressed however, there is one bad thing about it.



It has turned into rage or just anger. I got crappy as results I know but dad there is no need to remind me every time you have the chance.
Nan there was need to look disappointed.
Family can you stop tell each other behind my back how much I wont be going to college and how much of a let down I am in comparison to my cousin, who I did actually beat in results.
Dad stop going on about the fact that I haven't got a job, we live in a tiny village and there aren't enough businesses to suit needs of the jobless.
Dad stop telling me I am a liar when I am not and to think you think that is all who I am is not nice.
Dad stop comparing me to my biological father, he may have been a drunk, a cheat, an arse to mum and a liar but that is no grounds for you to compare him to me for many reasons :

A,. You've never met him

B, I've never truly met him

C, he isn't my dad

D, I did not grow up around him so I could not pick up behaviour from him

E, we all know you have a crappy job, with crappy lay, crappy hour with crappy responsibilities but there is no need to tell us about it every day or not tell us but act like a child

Tell you what I am a child who has anxiety which means I can cry when I get shouted at, exams kills me, I kill my exams (in the truly murdering sense, so much they are gonna test me for dyslexia), I have had a depressive state and I only told one person a friend and no one in my family picked up on it, my nan died but I could say good by because I had the friction chicken pox, I am constantly compared to my brother which I don't mind but people treat him like a failure as well, I never met my sister, I feel like my parents are more my grandparents at times, the fact that my grandparents won't be around forever makes me feel awful every time it's mentioned, teachers have always higher expectations which I don't meet, my best friend went through loss, a bad relationship while self harming and I felt helpless because it makes me cry every time I think that she could be hurt, no guys like me in a romantic way and my friend guys always just say it will take time and respect myself, well I am self conscious of my body /face/hair, I retaliate in ways to release anger by changing my appearance like colouring my hair with sharpies or shaving my hair or trying to tattoo myself.


Take any of the above and then say that I am a :

Lazy teenager
A liar
Good for nothing
Cheat
Drunk/budding alcoholic
Permanently happy

Yours the Teenage Teenager