So it's good that it has been a month since I have felt depressed however, there is one bad thing about it.
It has turned into rage or just anger. I got crappy as results I know but dad there is no need to remind me every time you have the chance.
Nan there was need to look disappointed.
Family can you stop tell each other behind my back how much I wont be going to college and how much of a let down I am in comparison to my cousin, who I did actually beat in results.
Dad stop going on about the fact that I haven't got a job, we live in a tiny village and there aren't enough businesses to suit needs of the jobless.
Dad stop telling me I am a liar when I am not and to think you think that is all who I am is not nice.
Dad stop comparing me to my biological father, he may have been a drunk, a cheat, an arse to mum and a liar but that is no grounds for you to compare him to me for many reasons :
A,. You've never met him
B, I've never truly met him
C, he isn't my dad
D, I did not grow up around him so I could not pick up behaviour from him
E, we all know you have a crappy job, with crappy lay, crappy hour with crappy responsibilities but there is no need to tell us about it every day or not tell us but act like a child
Tell you what I am a child who has anxiety which means I can cry when I get shouted at, exams kills me, I kill my exams (in the truly murdering sense, so much they are gonna test me for dyslexia), I have had a depressive state and I only told one person a friend and no one in my family picked up on it, my nan died but I could say good by because I had the friction chicken pox, I am constantly compared to my brother which I don't mind but people treat him like a failure as well, I never met my sister, I feel like my parents are more my grandparents at times, the fact that my grandparents won't be around forever makes me feel awful every time it's mentioned, teachers have always higher expectations which I don't meet, my best friend went through loss, a bad relationship while self harming and I felt helpless because it makes me cry every time I think that she could be hurt, no guys like me in a romantic way and my friend guys always just say it will take time and respect myself, well I am self conscious of my body /face/hair, I retaliate in ways to release anger by changing my appearance like colouring my hair with sharpies or shaving my hair or trying to tattoo myself.
Take any of the above and then say that I am a :
Lazy teenager
A liar
Good for nothing
Cheat
Drunk/budding alcoholic
Permanently happy
Yours the Teenage Teenager
It has turned into rage or just anger. I got crappy as results I know but dad there is no need to remind me every time you have the chance.
Nan there was need to look disappointed.
Family can you stop tell each other behind my back how much I wont be going to college and how much of a let down I am in comparison to my cousin, who I did actually beat in results.
Dad stop going on about the fact that I haven't got a job, we live in a tiny village and there aren't enough businesses to suit needs of the jobless.
Dad stop telling me I am a liar when I am not and to think you think that is all who I am is not nice.
Dad stop comparing me to my biological father, he may have been a drunk, a cheat, an arse to mum and a liar but that is no grounds for you to compare him to me for many reasons :
A,. You've never met him
B, I've never truly met him
C, he isn't my dad
D, I did not grow up around him so I could not pick up behaviour from him
E, we all know you have a crappy job, with crappy lay, crappy hour with crappy responsibilities but there is no need to tell us about it every day or not tell us but act like a child
Tell you what I am a child who has anxiety which means I can cry when I get shouted at, exams kills me, I kill my exams (in the truly murdering sense, so much they are gonna test me for dyslexia), I have had a depressive state and I only told one person a friend and no one in my family picked up on it, my nan died but I could say good by because I had the friction chicken pox, I am constantly compared to my brother which I don't mind but people treat him like a failure as well, I never met my sister, I feel like my parents are more my grandparents at times, the fact that my grandparents won't be around forever makes me feel awful every time it's mentioned, teachers have always higher expectations which I don't meet, my best friend went through loss, a bad relationship while self harming and I felt helpless because it makes me cry every time I think that she could be hurt, no guys like me in a romantic way and my friend guys always just say it will take time and respect myself, well I am self conscious of my body /face/hair, I retaliate in ways to release anger by changing my appearance like colouring my hair with sharpies or shaving my hair or trying to tattoo myself.
Take any of the above and then say that I am a :
Lazy teenager
A liar
Good for nothing
Cheat
Drunk/budding alcoholic
Permanently happy
Yours the Teenage Teenager
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