I had always thought I was missing something out in my life. When I was a young child I thought that this was because my parents had had a messy divorce. When I was in my teens I thought it was be CV ause my grandmother had died. However, it is now that I realise as I am in my late teens that it is the fact that I have no experience in love which is the true reaosn for my emptiness.
Nothing. Nada. Nichego. Not a peck on the cheek or even an accidental brush past fondle. And don't get me wrong though, I do have crushes and confront them on it but just nothing happens.
Well, I tell a lie, I did have a boyfriend. It lasted for about a day and it occurred when we both in Year 8. Not a time to have a relationship obviously. The only reason for breaking up with him was because I had butterflies and this nervous feeling made me feel ill. But, it does make me think, What would have happened if I stayed with him? Would I still be with him? Probably.
- My best-friend may still be with her boyfriend.
- She would be still friends with half of our year.
- I probably wouldn't be a soppy girl practically paying a friend to make her a 'woman'.
- Yet, I wouldn't have the friends which I have today. And with that I wouldn't have this life.
- I would have a higher respect from the male population of my friends.
- I wouldn't probably be writing this.
However, non eof these points are true as I am not with that guy and who knows? It may effect the rest of my life in both negative and positive ways but, it may have been simply one of those get together which never actually count.
No comments:
Post a Comment